These days I get unreasonably upset for no reason. And this just doesn’t happen in a day and I have no idea why it happens too. 

Blame it on the hormones? Perhaps. But I think the main reason why I’m acting or rather feeling this way is because I’ve kept it for too long. Too much emotions I’ve suppressed and now its taking its toll on me.

I’ve been a bad person for not being able to control or rather, manage my emotions well. My pride has taken its toll on me. I miss being hugged by my trusty girlfriends. I miss my mum. I miss being me. 

I’ve changed so much over the course of my life in college. So much that I’ve turned into someone so negative I sometimes sit back and think, “What happened to the old me?”

I gotta let down my pride and be more vulnerable. But I hate at the thought of that. Being vulnerable is not what I want to be. 

Recently, I’ve been labelled as psychotic by a friend. And it made me so angry. So angry that I cannot show her how mad I was because she’s a dear friend. 

Why am I feeling this way? I hate venting up my feelings but really, there is no one that I can trust or depend on. I really miss my high school bestie. :’(